Dear Sarah,
I saw you today. I saw you and thought of how that was supposed to be me, the one holding flowers for you in that tiny cafe by the sixth Street , the one that watched you laugh today, the one that played with your hair and your lips, the one to love you. It was supposed to be me. But it wasn’t.
Instead, I was the one that stood there and watched, as you smiled adorably at him just the way you used to smile at me at some point. I saw, you wore the bracelet I gave to you, on a date with him. Glad you took a part of me with you.
I am sorry I kept watching you two laugh and enjoy but something kept me rooted to the spot the entire time. Something in me said that I deserved it. And I am sorry for everything I did. My heart felt like it was crumbling and screaming at me. That I deserved to see the hole I punched in the wall and feel w weak I feel right now. And now I realize I made you go through all this. I am sorry for that.
I never meant to hurt you, I was blind. And so many things came up between us…and just tore us apart. I just hope you live a happy life and if this is the last thing you ever hear from me then just know I believe you can tear the entire world apart if you want to. Just know someone out there believes in you and please fight, fight for everything you want. I wish I could have been there but I screwed it up.
So I was the one that stood by the cafe and watched you give your heart to him, I was the one that watched him wrap himself around you when your fears welled up in your eyes again. I don’t know what kept me in my place, I don’t know how I did not walk in and break his face, I don’t know. Maybe every part of me knows, regrets and cares. It was so fucking painful. Yet I knew I deserved every piece of that pain. I am sorry.
Here’s hoping we fall in love again…someday.
Your friend,
Kenedy
Hie, sorry for the incomplete ‘hey’ above.
I have loved your blog and you’d find me here often..
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Hahaha no worries. Thank you! I am so glad ❤ I would love to see you around. I’ll surely check out your blog in a bit.
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Always my pleasure.
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Howdy! This post could not be written much better!
Going through this post reminds me of my previous roommate!
He constantly kept preaching about this. I most certainly will send
this article to him. Fairly certain he’ll have a
great read. Many thanks for sharing!
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Happy Birthday! Wishing you an amazing day! 🙂
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Thank you
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This is heart wrenching, love it:)
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Thank you!
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I feel like everything I try to write about is what you’ve written about…my grammar is horrible but that doesn’t stop me from writing…maybe can you read my stuff and give me some notes? If not no worries I appreciate your work regardless
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Sure I’ll do it and maybe you can use some app or website that checks your grammar if you arent really confident with it. Thank you! And good luck!
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Brilliant piece love it
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I am smelling. Thank you!
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Genuine love…painful self awareness…letting go. This is living with your heart.
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Exactly. Always happiness isn’t exactly living huh.
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Holy shit I think this is how my Ex feels. She fucked up big time . Brought little tears to my eyes bro. Well done .
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Sorry dude. Well I hope your happy with the moving on. Goodluck ! And thank you loads for reading it! Pst- I am girl.
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I don’t know if I am. I am really struggling with it. Your welcome I thought it was really well done. I need lots of luck thanks 🙂 cool I actually thought you were a dude. Not sure if that changes anything?
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I know those feelings
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Sublime.
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Thank you!
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This made me cry. 😢👏🏽
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Www sorry bout that!
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No sorry. You wrote it so beautifully. 😉
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Hahahaha Thank you so much! I can’t stop smiling xD
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Oh! Why? 🙊🙈
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Maybe cause yours so sweet or maybe cause I just got my new book delivered to me.
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Oh! That’s why iamsweetanne 😉 haha.
Because I appreciate wonderful works… And yours is one of those. 🙂
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hahaha see ! That makes sense 😉 I posted something new after a really long time. Was kind of hesitant on posting this one too. Thank you for reading it and liking it dude!
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My pleasure. ❤️
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